why i am saying "no" to USAPL Raw Nationals
Hi guys! Happy Thursday! There's something I've been wanting to tell you about, so I'm just going to get right to it.
Since my meet in May, I have felt so many different feelings. Extreme happiness, pride, accomplishment, and relief were first, but then I started to feel things like disappointment, pain, exhaustion, worry, even dread. I don't think I have ever used the word dread, but I felt it!! Let me explain a little.
Competing in the USAPL was a goal of mine. Qualifying for Raw Nationals was a goal of mine. Competing at Raw Nationals was a goal of mine as well. I mostly I wanted to do it for the experience and to say that I did it and to meet all the strong girls I admire and am connected with through social media. A few weeks ago, meet prep became a lot more real, with Nationals only being about 3 months away, and I started to think about things a bit differently and became more honest with myself.
Here are just a few of the thoughts that had been racing through my mind for weeks:
- What will my principal say when I request to take almost a week off of school within the first six weeks of the school year? (Side note here: If competing at Nationals were something deep down I TRULY wanted to do, I would not care at all what he would say- I would take unpaid time if I had to, get written up, I wouldn't care. So caring about this was a sign I wasn't 100% all about it.)
- How will I prep and peak effectively for a huge meet during those first few weeks of school that are SO exhausting and draining?
- How will I feel after flying to Orlando, sleeping in a hotel (didn't work so great for me this past meet), and just being out of my normal routine before a pretty high pressure meet?
- Why spend all of this money to travel, stay in a hotel for 4+ nights, when it's not really going to be FUN?
I'll stop right there, actually. The second I said to myself that it wasn't going to be fun, I knew Raw Nationals had become a "No" for me.
Do I love lifting? YES!!!! It is basically my favorite thing in life haha! Do I love being strong?? YUP, sure do. Do I need to go prove that to anyone- including myself? No. What I need to do is to have fun and just enjoy this lifestyle. As preparing for Nationals got more and more real, I basically realized that prepping for a meet is not the fun part for me. The fun part for me is getting up every day, heading out into the garage with my husband and my dog, and training. Eating well, being strong, feeling fit, healthy, strong, lean, HAPPY, and inspiring, encouraging and teaching others to live this way... that's the fun part, so that's what I am going to do.
So, my "Summer of Strength" is going to look a little different than what I had first envisioned. I am changing things up training-wise and my coach is writing me a bodybuilding program! I have always loved the bodybuilding accessory work, and even bodybuilding days he has programmed for me, and you guys know I love my muscles, so that's what I am doing. I am also going to book another photo shoot for myself in the coming months as something fun and exciting to look forward to!
So, that's that, and I feel 1,000x better having shared all that with you guys. Thanks for being there- xoxox Lindsay